Unexpected

Its funny how people can catch you off guard.
I was in the office of my soon to be financial adviser Marco and his associate Susan when I discovered something very important. I just finished explaining my plans to attend medical school, when Marco left the office to retrieve a brochure for me to peruse. In his absence, I struck up a conversation with Susan and was taken back by a simple question she had asked.
"Are you nervous?" It took me a second to realize where she was directing the question. Was I nervous about meeting with them about my financial future? No, she meant going to medical school.
The impact wasn't evident until I found myself walking to the gym and thinking "I am nervous." Why did it it take input from a complete stranger (at the time) to bring this to the forefront of my mind? I felt totally detached from myself, if that makes any sense. Or maybe it was loneliness? In either case it was uncomfortable. Maybe I'm too used to this routine life of mine and saw how drastically it's about to change. I don't know, but I was totally caught off guard.